Shortly after I went "live" with my blog, I got an email from a women who just lost her triplets at 22 or 23 weeks. She thanked me for starting my blog, for sharing my story. I cried. I tried to read her email to my husband, but I lost my voice. Why did she lose her babies and I didn't? Why did mine just turn three and her never got to breathe? Am I lucky and she unlucky? Lord knows that I didn't deserve my babies anymore than she did. Sometimes I think it is because of a darn butterfly that flapped it wings in China that created these events. However, most the time, I think it's because life just sucks sometimes. Everyone has had those moments or events when you think "life sucks," but a stillbirth or infant death is a whole different universe of "life sucks."
Some of the women that had stillbirths have children that go to the same preschool as mine. I seem them smiling and being wonderful mothers. You are so strong, I think. I admire you. I feel for you and whether you know it or not, I am always wishing you and your family happiness.
Miss. Universe of the body-building world might have the biggest muscles, but women who has suffered infant losses have the strongest hearts.
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